[enchantmentadm]

My CM subscription auto-renewed a few days ago. So I guess I am stuck with them for another year. I realize this was a voluntary act. I could have taken off my credit card information, which would have prevented the auto-renew. But I can't help but have a little buyer's remorse. Every time, I say that this renewal will be the last one. I have been saying this for years. Maybe it is good that I still have some hope. But when is hope a false hope? I am more and more convinced that if there is a right person for me, she is not in my current location. I am praying about whether I should shoot the moon and go for something long distance. Perhaps I could participate in more Relate events and see what happens. I have tried long distance on and off and have had worse results with that than I have locally. I have intensely mixed feelings about CM. It is the only dating site I have had any results with at all. But to echo the song, I still can't find what I'm looking for.